§ The conceit of self loathing

Self-contempt is defined as the conceit of thinking "I am inferior" and
involves a sharp sense of one’s baseness and inadequacy vis-a-vis others.
There is even an excessive variety of it called "self-abasement"
which is a conceit wherein, asserts that one is inferior even to inferior
persons.

Conceit, as it is generally understood, is waving one’s flag or banner highest
over others and drawing attention to oneself. Even if one
is asserting one’s inferiority, one is still engaged in a display of
self-advertisement.

"I am," "I shall be," "I might be," and "would that I
might be." These four possibilities describe how I conceive of myself at present,
how I might be in the future, how I might imagine myself either in doubt or
speculation, and how I might plan to be.